Lately, I’ve been thinking about the whirlwind year this has been for me and how the changes keep coming. It’s been insightful and the three goals I set at the beginning of the year I’ve met. So now, it’s a process of figuring out “what’s next” and starting to get settled in some ways and get a gameplan in others.
So now that I’ve found a place to land professionally, I’ve been writing more than I had in past years and other projects are moving along I’m trying to get a foothold on something meaningful in relation to the company I started.
I hate to be all candid and stuff, but I might as well. Fact of the matter is, it hasn’t really gone the way I anticipated. Ok, that’s not true. I expected the whole thing to come tumbling down like a house of cards early on. But I started it almost solely to lineup with people who I thought had the skills to complement my strengths. I thought together we could do some pretty interesting things.
All in all, it’s been a delightful experience. But it’s not really turning out to be what I’d hoped. And that’s completely my fault.
I expected to build something robust based off my experience. One thing I’ve learned from past entrepreneurial pursuits is the right time to throw in the towel or to shift gears. The other thing I thought about is the one adage from The Dip that I came to adopt as a mantra to follow always, “If you can’t be best in the world in it, don’t waste your time.” I’m fine with a good tennis coach or an adequate golfer. But when it comes to side projects that you hope to turn into real life activities, I’m just not as comfortable with operating in fields where I just don’t have the chops or the material goods to take down the competition.
So where does that lead? I’ve got a few ideas. One of the best things about this blog (thanks, readers) has been the ability to branch out more, to read what others are talking about, to learn trends and just become generally more informed. It’s astounding to me how much I picked up this year and even with how hectic it’s been, I’ve still come to wonder how I managed to get through the first few years of my professional career without a forum like this to put my ideas out there, to solicit feedback and more.
I’m winding up a major project over the next few weeks and starting a new position that I’ll announce once the details are more clear. But on the side project front, Synonym is going to evolve with me. I think the potential to develop something that lets me work with audiences that I’ve been connecting with for years is the right direction to head in.
It’s obvious to me that I want to do more interact with people on ideas that I feel like I have some authority to speak about. Not that I feel like my web knowledge isn’t useful or pertinent or meaningful. In fact, I feel like I bring a great deal insight to the table. But it’s something I do, not really my passion and it’s often daunting to watch the antics of my colleagues in the field who ply their trade at conferences around the country. I’ll be out in the field next year joining the fray more readily now that I’ve found a place to perch that’s a good fit.
But I’m excited about the idea of pursuing the other things that I’m passionate about, too. If I’ve learned anything this year, it’s that I miss traveling the country and meeting different kinds of people. That I’ve discovered a real passion for communicating life tips, ideas and thoughts to all sorts of folks, through the interactions I’ve had over the past few years in far flung parts of the country.
It’s funny when I think about the fact that I spent far more time in front of audiences in the earlier part of my 20s than I have in recent years. You almost forget how big a part of your life it is and well, after a few forays this year, I want it back…and I know what sorts of things I want to talk about.
It’s a process, but it’s one that I’m looking for to, among other things.