I was watching this video with Don Cheadle and Kerry Washington talking about being in Hollywood. The thing that I found interesting was how no matter how successful they both are, they seemed well aware that a failure to work or to recede from the limelight at a particular point would result in becoming irrelevant. Ad-libbing, one of the say “you’ve never really made it, you’re just working. You do work.”
Starting a new job is always a good opportunity to reflect on the milestones in our lives as they occur. For me, it’s remembering how strange it can often feel to be doing a thing that I grew up doing and never had any real designs on making a career. Maybe because when I started, you didn’t grow up to become a “web person” but rather, it was a thing you did in your room and your parents told you to stop doing to do something else. My how times have changed.
I’m not sure how consistent I’ll be about blog posts, advice or anything else unrelated to work, side projects or people things. But I do know I need to make a consistent effort to blog more about the sorts of things I wished someone had told me when I was getting started. I’m not sure I’d have understood everything they were trying to impart, but a good reason for why I will often try to spread the wisdom I’ve picked up is because I recall being in a situation where I could’ve used good advice and just didn’t have the right contacts to tap who understood my circumstances enough to dispense it.
Thanks to the ubiquity of the web, it’s a lot easier now. But even then, you don’t want to ask every stranger you meet for advice, since you can’t be sure what you’ll get in return.
My big thought of the night was, you’ve never really ever made. Whether you’re a Hollywood actor or a web guy working in some random state. You’re always trying to improve your craft, growing and trying to do more. You don’t get to a point climbing up the career ladder where you spend much time peering out at the scene thinking “aah, so this is what success feels like,” because it’s a fleeting thing. You never feel like you have enough and even the best situations come with caveats.
I remember a conversation I had with a friend recently. She’s got a Ph.D., is a professor at an elite college and did so after going back to school in her 30s to get where she is now. We both recalled this moment where you remember your life at your worst moments and think, “surely things will get better from here, right?” Only to discover that it took multiple years in some cases to just get to a point where you felt semi-comfortable enough to breathe. She said, “but if you hadn’t gone through all of that to get where you are, would you even appreciate it?”
I’m not sure the answer. I just know that looking back on the immediate and distant past, I didn’t see any of this coming. I’m living out my dreams and checking a number of marks off a to-do list for things I always wanted to do in the process of all of this. Except in the process of doing so, I didn’t always understand the implications of that pursuit and where it’d leave me.
We watch our mentors, our champions and our friends weave through a world with the ease of a dance champion and believe that by modeling ourselves after them we can follow in their footsteps in a sense. Except it doesn’t always work that way when you’re starting from zero or worse. You have to carve your own trail through the maze, learning with each step we take.
The thing I always go back to is, no matter far you’ve come, you’ve never really “made it” you’re just progressively taking the next step on your path.